"Instead of reining in your thoughts, follow them as they meander through your imagination. But don't judge yourself harshly if, at the end of the day, you don't have anything tangible to show for your lovely fantasies."
The above quote is from my horoscope today.
That's right - my horoscope is telling me not only to allow my imagination to run wild but to do so proudly.
Ha!
Universe,
I'm glad that we are on the same page today.
Peace,
J
Here is the low-down on a long-running fantasy
(Nothing kinky, get your mind out of the gutter. Sheesh!)
I've been working on a couple of different children's books for the last few years. I'm sure that eventually I will try to get them published but for now they knock around in my imagination with all the other stuff. So in honor of my imagination and encouraging horoscope I thought that it might be nice to share a small selection from my favorite today. The illustrations that this will eventually have are an essential part of the project but for today you'll have to use your imagination.
Please accept as my humble gift a short except from:
The Missed Adventures of Jameson Green.
(This has a copywrite, you ba#$^*ds so don't try anything sneaky)
Jameson Green was not an ordinary 1st grader. Oh, sure she was six years old, had ordinary brown hair, ordinary green eyes, and lived an ordinary little life. But underneath it all Jameson knew she was anything but ordinary. For one thing, Jameson’s best friend happened to be a little black cat named Arturius. Arturius, a descendent of the royal cats of the pharaohs of Egypt, was not an ordinary house cat. The thing that Jameson and Arturius liked to do most in the world was to go on adventures! There was only one problem. No one ever believed that their adventures were real.
And so one sunny afternoon when Jameson was telling her mother about the pirate ship that she and Arturius had sailed on last Wednesday, all her mother said was, “Oh, Jameson! If only you could put that creativity to good use and stop making up these stories!”
“But Mom!” cried Jameson. “Really, dear,” said Mrs. Green, “there was no pirate ship. You were out in the garden with Arturius the entire time!”
“Mom! Arturius and I almost had to walk the plank! But he saved us in the nick of time by confusing the pirates with a riddle,” explained Jameson.
“Jameson, Jameson, Jameson. Arturius can’t speak! He is just a cat.”
“But Mama, he is the descendents of the royal cats of the pharaohs of Egypt!”
“Sweetheart,” interrupted Mrs. Green, “Arturius is an ordinary house cat that Daddy brought home from the SPCA.”
“Hmmph,” said Jameson.
“Hmmph,” said Mrs. Green.
“Hmmph,” said Arturius, though it came out sounding more like a sneeze.
Mrs. Green took the laundry into the house, and Jameson and Arturius climbed on to the porch swing to think. “Why doesn’t anyone ever believe us!” wailed Jameson. Arturius sat besides her, twitching his tail back and forth as he often did when he was in deep thought. “I know!” cried Jameson as she leapt from the porch swing. “If we brought back proof from our adventures, everyone would have to believe us. Come on Arturius, we’re off!”
(My familiar and inspiration)
"Don't be afraid to dream; just temper your expectations with critical thinking so you don't confuse what you want with what you have."
Hmmmm. Interesting horoscope.
I'm going to split this into two parts.
Part One: Don't be afraid to dream; just temper your expectations with critical thinking.
Yeah, this is good advise for me. I'm something of a pipe-dreamer due in part to my wild imagination (
otherwise known as delusions) and I get somewhat hyper-sensitive when people (
otherwise known as my mother) have the good sense to point out that I might be getting carried away.
This frustrates me for many reasons - the biggest is probably that I know that I am guilty of this behavior. The thing is - I'm okay with it, it's part of what keeps my disposition so sunny. I have to look for the good or, more often than not, talk about the good.
I don't need any help from outside sources seeing the dark side or portents of doom - I've got that all inside my own head. I just work to keep that between me and me, to work it out on my own. Unfortunately, this also makes me somewhat defensive and/or put out when my grand plans or whatever get brought back down to earth.
Now, I know that when this happens it is because I am loved and that the people in my life who tend to be more realistic than not care about what happens to me.
It may seem like my head is in the clouds but it isn't. As surprising (
or delusional) as this may sound, I am a realist when it comes right down to it.
Part Two: Don't confuse what you want with what you have.
At first glance
(or actually fifth) this seems like it's telling me not to settle.
I can get behind that.
I spent the better part of my twenties convincing myself that what I wanted more than anything in the world is what I had right then and there and it wasn't until this most recent chapter of my life that I've stopped doing that.
(
For the most part)
.
I love this adventure that my life has become, but there is a part of me that
does want to settle and let my roots dig in deep to the earth. (
Goodness knows I'm not getting any younger).
These feelings always seem to crop up again when I'm feeling the most blue or vulnerable and I need to quell them. I know that they are just my fears trying to get the better of me. And you can bet your butt that that sure as hell is not going to happen.
I'm not going to settle - but I'm also going to try to not keep myself apart from life out of some misguided fear of getting stuck in one place.
My entire horoscope reads:
Relationships are complicated today because it's not easy for you to see things as they truly are. Instead, you perceive others through rose-colored glasses now, tinting reality with your unfulfilled desires. Don't be afraid to dream; just temper your expectations with critical thinking so you don't confuse what you want with what you have.
Like I said, I'm not settling anymore.
Not on people, places, or things.
Not on actions, adjectives, or adverbs.
Not for any part of a sentence.
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I'll find my way
I'll find it far away
I'll find it in the unexpected and unknown
I'll find my life in my own way
Today
Here I go
And there's no turning back
My great adventure has begun
I may be small
But I've got giant plans
To shine as greatly as the sun
I will blaze
Until I find my time and place
I will be fearless,
Surrendering modesty and grace
I will not disapear without a trace
I'll shout and start a riot
Be anything but quiet
Christopher Columbus
I'll be Astonishing
Astonishing
Astonishing
At Last
Astonishing from Little Women with book by Allan Knee, lyrics by Mindi Dickstein, and music by Jason Howland.
